There’s no breakup worse than the one with your best friend.

It seems no amount of time or distance can help heal the wounds caused from it. And the Internet only makes it worse — especially the Facebooks, Twitters and blogs of the universe.

Even if you’re not Facebook friends anymore, the rollout of Timeline has caused you to relive past wall posts filled with making plans. It’s also shown you pictures from long ago of the two of you laughing. Giggling for no reason. Cleaning out closets. Facials, pedicures, coffees.

You ask mutual friends and acquantiances how she is. You’re saddened when she decides not to show to friends’ parties.

You saw her once at a public party. You went to wave and smile, she turned her back on you. You were left alone.

Others understand. “I recently broke up with my best friend, too,” a friend confides. Her sad smile lets you know you’re not alone.

You hear of milestones you’re missing in her life, just as she is missing milestones in yours. This time when you move, she won’t help you pack, she won’t help you clean out your closet, she won’t help decorate.

You want to reach out to her. Try to make things right. Try to be best friends again. Do you text? Email? But something stops you from writing that email: Has too much time gone by? Does she feel the same? What if she is happy we’re not friends anymore?

I just miss my best friend.

(Photo courtesy of P.J.M. on Flickr.)